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i was 9 yo with a light cord in my dads bedroom ,,,,but the cord wouldnt hold my weight

just red neck burn

Good Lord! 9!

I have a nephew who was not much older than that and has been overwhelmed to that extent. His little life may have SA in it, but his parents scream at each other daily, in fact until their divorce, that his how the mother and father would talk, yell/screaming. His desire to leave that place did not make a dent in their perspective. He now is a cross county runner, the fastest that region has seen. He will have to face that event in his life, but right now, he is surviving. Joey, you survived, and now you want to face that which overwhelmed you. We are here, this is worthwhile what you are doing, we are here to support you every step of the way.

Sam

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I was 15 when the therapist informed my parents I was in danger.

G

I have to be real with you guys, the last time I tried it was two years ago, I still grapple with suicidal ideation from time to time and monitor when I need to be really honest with my uplink and let them know I need help to survive. Just being real.
G

i signed a contract with my T just last week - basically me promising what things i will do before committing suicide. The methods keep running through my head ... fortunately i'm not "in the right mood" to end it.
but sometimes it is not easy.

i'm not sure what my T would have done if i hadn't agreed to the contract.

MarkK

You need to focus on what you need to heal. You are facing the past, we all know how painful it is, it pushes us to feeling new lows, but once we get the poison out and surround ourselves with caring and good people--we find we can have a life worth living. It takes work-use your support systems, MS, support groups, your T and people who stand by you. Steer clear of those who look to put you down--their goal is to hurt you and you don't need to be dealing with those type of people.

Please stay strong--we need you here!!!

Kevin

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