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#464141 - 04/16/14 12:14 AM Re: ***TRIGGER*** Castration fear [Re: traveler]
randy2000 Offline
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Registered: 11/15/11
Posts: 5
Loc: New York, USA
It was the night before my hernia operation. I was a senior in high school. My abuser continued to control me. I overheard my dad telling my mom that if the doctor wasn't careful, I would be castrated. When I heard that, it excited me. I don't know why but my abuser had made me feel like I didn't deserve to be a man. I was shaved for the operation and my penis looked even smaller than usual. I don't know why I told my perp about my thoughts of castration. He actually threatened to cut off my testicles with a knife.

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#464152 - 04/16/14 11:32 AM Re: ***TRIGGER*** Castration fear [Re: traveler]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3401
Loc: somewhere in Africa
how are you doing now, Randy?

i started this thread over 2 years ago and it is so strange to see it come up again. i have definitely progressed a lot since i first wrote about it. i hope you are better now, too? if it is still an issue for you, don't hesitate to keep working at it. it can get better.

lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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