Welcome Captain Okita! What everyone has said thus far can not help but be reiterated once more. You are not alone, what happened to you was not your fault, and it can get better. It is true that the journey is long and arduous, however, it is fulfilling. As time passes and new challenges arise you will find yourself able to take measure of what you have gained and where you are going. The days of being trapped in a prison of false realities imposed upon you by your abuse are over and it is your time, your right to be free and happy : )

"Life is like this dark tunnel. You may not always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you keep moving, you will come to a better place." ~ General Iroh