Robbie, you can't help anyone else if you're screwed up too. Don't confuse courage with ignoring your problems. I did that mostly because no clue what to do 15 years ago. It's easier to run away from your problems and "help" others. Truth is, you're not really helping anyone and destroying yourself in the process. I did exactly what you're doing (on a smaller scale). Granted I didn't have the help I needed available to me then (shitty therapists only). Maybe you're the same place I was. Today, I don't have the help I need either but at least I'm working on myself. No offense, but that's what you're doing. You can't run away from your problems and fill them with something else forever. That's what you're doing. Your motives are wrong. Let me help these kids so I'll look noble ignoring my own kids and family. Yeah, that'll work. Do you really need to "pray" to anyone to see that dude? This is what some call "calling out another person's bullshit." Avoiding today's problems for sometime tomorrow is only gonna hurt you more tomorrow. Yeah, that's what I saw those 10-20-30 year alcoholics do in AA meetings because they did it to themselves.
A guy opens the front door and sees a snail on his doorstep. He picks up the snail and throws it across the street in a neighbor's yard. A year later, the guy opens the front door and the same snail is on his doorstep. The snail says, "What the f*ck was that about?"