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#388572 - 03/06/12 08:38 PM Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
my name, you say, is not on the list.
no reservation’s been made?
foreseeing the gates slung open,
admission, i thought, had been paid

turn me away from this fiery blaze?
are you sure what you’re saying is true?
i’ve had no doubts for all these years
assured of a place on your queue

when he threw me down he whispered to me
“you’re less than the average man”
give in to your fate, be quiet you fool
submit to my abject plan”

“you came from hell and return, you will
when your usefulness is complete”
“so live out your life in silence
when speaking of me, be discreet”

I tremble to think i’ve been duped all my life
believing my life has been spent
without regard for my glorious side
because of his evil intent

but there’s hope, i find, in now knowing
that my character is not set
by another man’s words no matter how strong
his opinion’s no longer a threat

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I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#388601 - 03/07/12 06:16 AM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: dancr6]
earlybird Offline
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Registered: 02/17/10
Posts: 1007
Loc: WA USA
A poem I can certainly relate to. To this day it amazes me still how corrosive my rapist’s words were. The acidity burned at the outer layers of my heart and soul for decades intentionally attempting to and being somewhat successful at disfiguring me. But as your poem so perfectly lays out we can and I have freed myself from the destructiveness of their caustic words.

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Balanced (My goal)

There is symmetry
In self-reflection
Life exemplified
Grace personified

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#390889 - 03/26/12 07:50 PM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: earlybird]
dancr6 Offline
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Loc: georgia
Thank you Earlybird, I'm glad others can relate to discovering that they are not condemned by some heartless man's actions.
_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#390918 - 03/26/12 09:32 PM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: dancr6]
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Registered: 09/02/11
Posts: 229
Loc: United States
Great!
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F.A.

To be sick is to be fragmented. To be healed is to become whole, and to become whole one must be in harmony with family, friends, and nature" -Navajo-
Blog: http://csafresno.blogspot.com
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#391061 - 03/27/12 08:04 PM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: F.A.]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
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Loc: somewhere in Africa
WOW - this is EXCELLENT - really spoke to me!!!
Well-written.

Lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#391148 - 03/28/12 06:06 AM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: traveler]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
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Loc: georgia
Thank you everyone, It's heartening when someone relates to a healing insight.
There was a long period when I felt there was no possibility of healing, and I'm sure I'm not alone in that.
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I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#391160 - 03/28/12 08:32 AM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: dancr6]
mike13 Offline
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Registered: 02/02/11
Posts: 419
Loc: California USA
Dang looks like I need to cancel my reservation at the hell hole hotel smile Thanks again dancr6 Mike

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#391329 - 03/29/12 06:14 AM Re: Turned Away From The Gates Of Hell [Re: mike13]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
We were lied to, the reservations were never made. :-)
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no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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