Hang on there dear Chuck,
I'm sorry that your friends died. I hope you will be feeling better soon. Don't forget that you are not alone.
I wish that we can take you out at least for short time. I went to city today, it looked like every tree is in blossom. I and my friend stud under cherry tree and we looked upon us, there were many petals flying on the wind, it was beautiful scenery. We all are on same path and we will become those flying petals sooner or later. Don't be scared, everything is gonna be alright. Keep informing us how are things...
You are in my thoughts all time!