2:45 am still going on. If history repeats, I soon will be the target, let us hope they will realize how ludicrous it is, listening devices. Since ihave learned to tune out and do affirmations during attacks I remain grounded the attacks are vicious and totally stupid. I hope they finishing checking the kitchen, probably find items long misplaced. I am just shaking my head, just want to sleep.

Now they are calling each other names. I guess trying not to be the next victim of attacks and all that I have went through. I was in such a peaceful sleep

Finally fell asleep--amazing I kept my self steady and did not regress into a nightmare or flashback. I think I am getting control over my life--it feels good.