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#177276 - 08/30/07 06:53 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us. Part 3
[Re: Lazarus]
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Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 9970
Loc: Denver, CO
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Good point Adam. Many of my 'firsts' were stolen too, and replaced with a long list of 'nevers.'
What was stolen:
A normal perspective of male-female relationships
My self-confidence / self-worth
The chance to desire a wife
The chance to have a family of my own
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Money talks ... but all it tells me is 'goodbye.'
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#177286 - 08/30/07 07:39 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us. Part 3
[Re: Lazarus]
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
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Ric, Oh god, Larry... You should have put a SERIOUS TRIGGER WARNING on that one Yes, you are absolutely right. Thanks for reminding me and sorry I failed to think of that. I was just so tired last night. Anyway, I have added the warning now. L.
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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)
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#177394 - 08/31/07 10:53 AM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us. Part 3
[Re: Muldoon]
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Registered: 07/11/07
Posts: 412
Loc: Texas, USA
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"My abusers stole my confidence, my pride in myself and my willingness to excel or stand out of the crowd for anything. I've worked past many negative effects of the abuse; but the drive to succeed and be noteworthy is something I'm still working on." - melliferal
It's that way for me too! The last thing I feel like being is noteworthy. I want to disappear. Don't do anything for me or say anything to me - just let me do what I have to do and move on. Praise is worse than criticism. And please, please don't ever give me a gift.
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I bid you Peace.
Kelly
The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.
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#177400 - 08/31/07 11:26 AM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us. Part 3
[Re: kellygtx]
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Registered: 04/05/01
Posts: 1032
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TRIGGER!!
What was stolen from me? me...who i should have been, every experience a child should have, every experience that a teenager should have.....
He destroyed me and from that point I was never the same...I wasnt me.
He created a weak, insecure, angry, shamed, beaten down, paranoid shell of a boy who was disgusted with himself and tormented day after day and who used sex to get people to like him.
What I gained: Paranoia...Inability to ever have a normal relationship...D.I.D....E.R.D...depression...the ability to destroy anyone with words...the ability to completely push away anyone who trys to help....The inability to accept myself....The ability to mistrust anyone....The ability to give good Blowjobs...A pain tolerance that can over come any pain I go through...that ability to scream silently....the ability to stop tears from falling...need i go on? Dont think I will....it would fill too much space.
What a good fuckin deal...I got more than i lost.....who else wants to sign up for THIS BULLSHIT!!!
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#177403 - 08/31/07 11:31 AM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us. *DELETED*
[Re: Muldoon]
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Registered: 02/18/01
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Loc: west
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#177455 - 08/31/07 04:45 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us.
[Re: krayoss]
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Registered: 04/05/01
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Sorry about my earlier post...bad day.
Brian
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Peace and Tranquility all depends on your frame of reference.
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#177520 - 08/31/07 08:20 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us.
[Re: pain4ever]
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
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Brian, Sorry about my earlier post...bad day. Yeah I know what you mean, but you know what? It's good you said all that. Now it's "out there". Not festering inside to harm you in so many ways. And anyway, I look at your points and I keep thinking, yep, me too, yep, that one as well... You're not alone. Much love, Larry
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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)
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#177531 - 08/31/07 09:34 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us.
[Re: roadrunner]
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Registered: 02/13/04
Posts: 961
Loc: HULBERT OK
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MY SOUL WAS TAKEN FROM ME
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MICHAEL
"I HAD NO SHOES THEN I SAW A MAN THAT HAD NO FEET"
"All I can do is be me, whoever that is"
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#177535 - 08/31/07 10:08 PM
Re: That Which was Stolen from Us.
[Re: OKIE MIKE]
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Registered: 06/02/07
Posts: 702
Loc: oregon
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what was taken from me?
the ability to smile
the ability to be touched without flinching
the ability to sleep at night without being afraid
i remember my friends talking about their first times them bragging about having sex and how great it is...
the idea that sex is good was taken from me
my pride and dignity was taken from me.
But i am starting to learn that i can take those things back that were stolen from me ....at least some of them.
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