to stuff away my emotions because they are less important then what my friend is going through
If this statement were placed into a slot machine, you'd have just hit the jackpot!
As a supporter, THAT is EXACTLY how we all feel. And it is maddening until we come to the realization that our emotions are not less important than what our survivors are going through. Our hurts are just "different" than theirs. Just like two crayons are different colors, they are still crayons! Pain is pain.
Your attention is currently focused on your beloved because you've prioritized properly, as a sound, mature adult does. His needs are perhaps the most immediate, but it doesn't mean your needs are inconsequential.
I hope F&F will help you control your own bleeding until your beloved's hemmoraging is under control. Then, when you feel it is time, let us help you get bandaged up properly.
Be easy on YOU! You matter, too!