I now this may sound stupid, but I hate feeling this way. Having people get mad at me for any little reason makes me angry. I got mad at someone today and emailed them to stop doing what they were doing. In normal human fashion this person yelled/cussed at me and told me to stop being a weirdo. I hate the fact that people can have this control over my emotions. I think it's linked to what happened to me as a kid. I feel abused, used, made to feel worthless, they make me feel like I'm annoying when I try to voice my frustrations. I can't deal with even the slightest feeling that I've let myself or others down. Mostly I just hate my life. I see no value in my existence. Abused as kid, never heard or understood. Numb and separate from the world. No one understands me and I don't know if I even understand myself. I wish I were stronger....
Sorry to rant....just felt I had to.
*The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.