I am out of my mind for even thinking I can do this!

no, you are not out of your mind... look how far you have come. look at all that you HAVE accomplished. if you couldn't do it you wouldn't have been accepted in the first place. if you couldn't do it you wouldn't have even applied. however, you accomplished all of that and more!!!

YES, YOU CAN DO IT!!!! DON'T LET ANYONE, EVEN YOURSELF, SAY THAT YOU CAN'T DO IT!!!

we are all beside you! you'll make it!

Obi,

You sound like my therapist.

I had lots of questions that I could not find answers online, so I went to the school today to talk to someone about them.

I was ready, notebook with the questions, neatly organized from most pertinent to least. I would walk up to the students manning the desk and all would be lovely.

Got in front of the building on 5th Avenue. I looked in. I saw a security guard. Got nervous. Went around the corner, organized my paperwork to make sure it was in order and handy. Checked that my pen could write. Reread my notes, the acceptance letter.

Then an overwhelming urge to puke came over me. I took deep breaths. Kept saying, "I can't do this. I can't do this." and "I must be out of my mind." Then I left.

So, tonight I'm drinking.

Tomorrow is another day.

Thebo, let me say this:

If you are strong enough to life me up when i am down this far, you are strong enough to do this for yourself. You can do it, and you deserve it.

Sent in the tuition deposit.

Why am I doing this? Someone remind me.

because you deserve it..

because it's time for you to take what has been rightfully yours from the beginning...

you've earned this... don't let it go...

Hi Thebo,

Just start to school and then things will sort themselves out. You must have been surprised by what you have accomplished already when you look back to when you walked into school the first day to start the courses. You already have most everything done already. You got the maximum credits for your transfer; omly another 6 courses to start your art therapy specialty and you will be done in no time at all. Then you will look back and say where did the time go to.

May the New Year bring you nothing but the best of success both in recovering and your education.


John