...I am an Air Force brat. My issues started when I was 12/13. Basically, the whole thing centered around my second scoutmaster after we changed bases. I have a fuzzy memory of finding out this guy, and his friends, were making movies of their sessions with me. At some point, I found out, stole what I could find from them and hid the things in the house I lived in. I stored it in the attic. At least that's what my fuzzy memory says.

Is this true? I don't know. I guess I am asking the military types here if there is a way to actually find anything further out. Unfortunately, this was forty years ago. The house still exists, according to Google earth, but I don't know if the military would even take me asking seriously and, if I did, if it would be worth it.

Like I said, these are just fuzzy memories(?) that have started popping in my head. Therapist thinks there is some reality, but what is real and is not is another question.

Thanks for any thoughts on the subject.

Hi, Jim.

I am an Air Force brat as well. I see this question as a valid one. It has been awhile since I have been on an Air Base. Finding out more about our past is what humans are about. Having a full picture about the past can be daunting.

What your abuser a scoutmaster who was in the military? If so, then the military has an issue. With it being 40 years ago it might be tough to answer. This has me thinking myself.

Peace,
Avery

Hey Jim

Sorry u have to be here and are trying to figure things out.

Rely on your instincts more than unearthing evidence from 40 years ago-I strongly believe your internal self will discern and discover what it needs to.

For me, my life left a trail of smoke that was impossible to trace back once the memories and feelings resurfaced. more importantly is that I deal with my current struggles and grow stronger in my life rather - knowledge about specifics from my abuse dont help me face life free from the damages of the abuse-I hope i am makkng my point clear.

Read around his site and the resources, articles and books referenced and addressing our stuff, ok? Share and read men sharing their questions, struggles and stories. Use this to light your way to a stronger place.

Jamie

At the time, my abuser was a Staff Sergeant. I could be wrong, but among other things, my dad was vice-wing commander. I have a that a) I was an easy mark and b) even if my dad didn't know, it was a way of getting back at the Colonel.

Could be wrong, but that's what I think. Very fuzzy memories of the whole thing.