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#377169 - 11/28/11 05:30 PM Tonight?
Esposa Offline
F&F Greeter
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Registered: 10/19/11
Posts: 678
Loc: NJ
What time will he come home?
Will he smell of whiskey or gin?
Will he ignore me or try to claim me?
What personality will he show me?

I long for that man I married to walk through the door. The man who protected me and loved me. The man who held my babies when they came into the world. The man who made a secret, safe place for us. But he's lost and I long for something that may no longer exist. What did they do to my best friend?


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#377170 - 11/28/11 05:43 PM Re: Tonight? [Re: Esposa]
SamV Offline
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Registered: 12/13/09
Posts: 5942
Loc: Talladega, Alabama, USA
Beautiful Esposa,

Searching for the man who searched for you, who found the real you. This is really powerful, thank you. Be patient, this is a process, it takes time. Your best friend is in there, behind the shallow eyes, behind the hesitation.

Meantime, you have not changed, you worth protecting, worth loving, a capable mother and partner, an amazing secret, a loyal friend.

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#377171 - 11/28/11 05:47 PM Re: Tonight? [Re: Esposa]
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Registered: 02/22/11
Posts: 65
Loc: Texas
Esposa,

You weren't on here when I used to post previously, and although I am glad to see you here for support, I am also sorry as to what brings you here. I, too, have gone through these questions over and over at one time, and I feel your pain. I also understand when you say "best friend". I just wrote all about this today, myself, although I now find myself in a different place than a few months ago. I know you've heard from survivors, as well has supporters on here, but it never ceases to be true...please take care of yourself and your children. Stay strong and stay in faith! I wish everyone on here the best on their journeys.

Regards,
Vicki


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#377201 - 11/28/11 08:34 PM Re: Tonight? [Re: SamV]
Esposa Offline
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Registered: 10/19/11
Posts: 678
Loc: NJ
Originally Posted By: sasuva
Beautiful Esposa,

Searching for the man who searched for you, who found the real you. This is really powerful, thank you. Be patient, this is a process, it takes time. Your best friend is in there, behind the shallow eyes, behind the hesitation.

Meantime, you have not changed, you worth protecting, worth loving, a capable mother and partner, an amazing secret, a loyal friend.


Sam....blow your words out into the wind for me, or set them adrift in a bottle... I want so much for them to be heard.



Edited by Esposa (11/28/11 08:34 PM)

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