All of us at MS have to relearn some things about ourselves, some more some less.
We were lied to by abuse, especially by csa. It lied to us that it was love. It wasn't really love, it was only a carnal* feeling. It started out our love-responding emotions before we were mature enough to respond in a loving way. The love-responding emotions then had a way of kicking us back in the face. Our love-responding emotions were turned on in a way that we couldn't possibly learn or grow or thrive from those experiences. That made it much harder for us to respond to others.
In marriage later, instead of taking a new and sparkling love-responding or love-making emotion out of our cupboard for our spouse, we take out a tattered and torn and much used and much depleted emotion. That doesn't make for a good start in a relationship. It can be done but it takes extra effort.
Also all of our relationships are affected. If our love-responding emotion was started up prematurely, then we will tend to see many relationships through those love-responding emotions, even relationships where that emotion isn't needed or wanted. Here again it can be overcome but it takes some work. The responses have to be re-educated.
* carnal means a basic feeling that even animals have. It's possible to touch puppies on their back in a way that will make them hump. But that's not good for them and would be an example of poor dog training. Dogs are carnivores, which means meat-eaters.