I'm a fk up.
Can't pay my own rent cuz I'm a dumbass. When I tell my G parents theyre ginna tell me I'm a fk up and theyll be right. I just realized today the extent of my isolation. Yeah, it's hardcore.
Fk the world, fk me, fk my g parents and most of all , fk humanity as a whole. You know it's bad when the only thing you feel for other ppl is a deep seated fking hatred.
Peace, i'm out.

Fkkkkkkkkkkk!!!! I can't even cuss because it's not kosher but i wanna so bad. I wanna destroy something!!

F&*k people! Theyre all over the place. Like goddamned cockroaches!!

I'm so full of hate, i'm gonna have to unload my rifle and put it away. I can't cry because the anger.

(((((kinghenri)))))

Puffer

Hey puffer

(((((kinghenri)))))))

:-(

Keep releasing that anger in any healthy safe way, kh.

We attribute abuse-level reactions to everyday occurrence, fellow survivor. We tend to bring the whole of our considerable emotional weight to bare on issues of rent, asking for money or asking for time to pay the rent. This hurts us, it scares us, it frightens us and it cripples us.

kh, take a moment to smile at yourself in the mirror, as you would a child with a scrape on his knee. You are so valuable, so precious, so innocent. (((kinghenri))) You are among your friends and fellow survivors, and we are gathered around you, in support and validation.

Then, when you are more stable, ask for the help you need to support yourself in the present.

Sam

Henri, just throwing this out there:

Do you ever get so angry that you want to scream, say how you feel, take a bat and hit a wall or something to take your anger out, but you can't get yourself to do that? Kind of like you are afraid of losing control? I'm asking since you said you wanted to cuss and couldn't, and you can't cry because of your anger.