those nightmares and the terror are very real and very common amongst trauma survivors. this has been the bread and butter of my own experiences except mine had been waking nightmares where it starts in a dream then i am conscious and aware but in the middle of a flashback and dissociate right after. the last three weeks it has reversed and i am having the dissociation and flashbacks while wide awake. i went for a long time without having any significant episodes or recall and thought i was on my way to integrating the trauma when the latest wave hit me three or four weeks ago, and it has gotten worse. sorry, meant to be more supportive and upbeat, but i wanted you to know that this does happen frequently to many people who are survivors. if i can help do not hesitate to pm me.
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