If you’ve found something spiritually meaningful in your life and want to share it with others, then that’s a generous, beautiful thing. But it’s difficult for some of us who’ve been sexually abused to be told in such commanding language that: “You are not your own,” “do not try to intellectually to figure it out,” “hit your knees,” etc.
Your intentions may be to share something good with us (and if so, thank you), but your tone is so authoritative. It’s not like you’re inviting us to come and explore this good thing you’ve found, but rather you’re demanding we submit to your view of the larger meanings and deeper mysteries of life. I’m guessing you didn’t mean to come across so harshly. On the other hand, if you want to proselytize for a religion, whether it’s Islam or Christianity or Judaism or whatever, that gets sticky. (I’m sure Islam has elements of beauty and mystery at its heart to recommend it, but I don’t want to be a Muslim, and if someone on this site commanded me onto my knees to Allah, I would resist.)
I didn’t read you post because I wanted to stir up trouble and I’m certainly not adding my voice to this thread for that reason. I happened to click on “SEEK AND FIND” in good faith (as a seeker hoping to find help from others). My initial reaction was that here’s a well-meaning fellow wanting to share something helpful, but he probably doesn’t realize how he’s coming across. Nothing you said upset me; I’m old enough to take care of myself now, but as a gay boy I was abused in the Christian church, including being forced into aversion therapy when I was 17. The point is, there may be other guys on this site much younger than I am, with less time in recovery, who’ve also been abused in religious settings. If they stumble on your post, perhaps they’ll benefit from a countering view.