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#373458 - 10/26/11 09:28 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: lapchinj]
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Registered: 11/19/09
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Way to go, Pete!! I like what I am hearing very much indeed. He abused you as did my abuser(s) abuse me while they claimed to be my friends and mentors in life to a young guy just finding his way in the world.
It's all bullshit lies to get what they wanted from us. Rest easy. I know you well from our WOR in Ohio last year nad I am so glad to hear these words of independnece, truth and righteousness from you,Pete.
Rock on 'bro to your own drum,
Michael
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#373737 - 10/29/11 09:45 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: lapchinj]
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Registered: 06/23/08
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Loc: washington
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#29129...Re: "Liking it" (BIG triggers)
~or~ #195408...Re: Types of...
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#373867 - 10/31/11 10:01 AM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: 1islandboy]
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Loc: New York
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Peace,Rainbows & Healing
Edited by lapchinj (03/16/13 11:01 PM)
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Peace is Friendship & Being Healthy Peace is like the Fresh Yellow Sun Peace Sounds Like Dogs Howling Peace Tastes Like Candy (By Devin Lee Parsons 4/17/99-6/3/2011 R.I.P.) Stick around....it does get better 
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#373871 - 10/31/11 10:50 AM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: lapchinj]
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Registered: 07/27/08
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Loc: TEXAS
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My brother, Jeff.
Here's how I found it. Most likely not the easiest way to do it. But I'm a computer dummy.
Type liking it where it says search bottom left. Then it will show 500 things on liking it.
Go to ppg #10 Different types of victims ppg 1=195408. 15/12/07
Then go to ppg #18 #29129. 18/08/05 by Roadrunner.
Hope this helps.
heal well, my brother, Jeff, heal well.
"I will take that lost boys hand, and I will lead him from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.
Pete..Irishmoose.
Edited by petercorbett (10/31/11 10:54 AM)
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#373907 - 10/31/11 03:19 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: lapchinj]
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#373913 - 10/31/11 04:37 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
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Peace,Rainbows & Healing
Edited by lapchinj (03/16/13 11:02 PM)
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Peace is Friendship & Being Healthy Peace is like the Fresh Yellow Sun Peace Sounds Like Dogs Howling Peace Tastes Like Candy (By Devin Lee Parsons 4/17/99-6/3/2011 R.I.P.) Stick around....it does get better
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#373940 - 10/31/11 10:54 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
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#375054 - 11/12/11 01:38 AM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: cris40ky]
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Registered: 10/25/05
Posts: 112
Loc: Vestavia, Alabama, USA
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I think "love" is too strong a word, but feelings for him other than hate do show up on occasion. The problem is that it's usually in the form of a wet dream. It's beyond infuriating, knowing that he can still assert that kind of power over me.
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#377028 - 11/27/11 04:48 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: cris40ky]
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Registered: 11/13/10
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Loc: Michigan
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I definitely loved my perp. In fact, I originally pursued him. My father had died when I was 7, and at 11 I got the idea that the band teacher would be the perfect replacement. I thought I could get him to marry my mother.
The grooming period was heaven. He let me drive his car on back roads, even though I am an epileptic. He taught me how to do music tran>
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#377047 - 11/27/11 07:04 PM
Re: "Loving" my perp
[Re: lukehorace]
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Registered: 06/20/11
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Loc: KY, US
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I have a lot of clarity about everything that happened. But it's mostly in my intellect. I don't let myself feel anything about it. It just lurks in the background, like my perp, waiting for an opportunity. I think it's hard to accept the pain of it all because accepting the pain means really facing the absolute lack of love in the relationship that was the most important one in my life at that point. Part of me is waiting, I think, for him to come out of the shadows and do it right, with affection and support. lukehorace, Thank you for having the courage to share this. These feelings I've quoted above sooo match my own in dealing with my perp. I am also incredibly touched to hear that you have gone on to establish such truly loving relationships!
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