Hi,
New to the site, I was molested when I was 7 or 8 I can't remember it was by one of the teens that lived down the street. I'm currently 30 years old. I feel like I'm having a sexual identity crises at the moment. This is do to having other experimental encounters with men. I figured by now this would have all just melted away into the back of my brain somewhere. It hasn't its only slowly becoming worse. There more to this story of course, at the moment I'm just trying to find some solid ground. I feel like I can't trust no one around me. So I find myself living in my mind, walking around faceless and empty. Currently I still haven't invoked the assistance of a professional one due to capital the other is I'm going to wait to travel back to stateside. Well, for now thank you all so much for this. I'm sure this site will be the start of a long healing for me.

Welcome to MS, frank!

You've already been on a long journey-but this part is about healing, connecting, and working through the stuff we've been carrying all this time.

Congratulations on embracing a larger truth about yourself and stopping the isolation about what happens to you.

I hope you spend some time on this site and take full advantage of the resources and help here. The men will share their stories and heir experience (and sometimes their opinions)-especially if you put your questions out there.

Damaged/confused sexuality is one of the consequences of abuse-it is possible to face this and walk thru it towards a better place. Just use the "search"' function to comb thru some of the thousands of posts on this and other topics.

When u get back to the US, my hope is that you can find some face to face support to deepen your recovery-isolation is not helpful (IMHO).

Hi Frank >>> welcome to the site.

Strange when I write this stuff Its all light and funny and friendly in my head.

Welcome Frank As the mountain man says, you are at the right place and it is now all about healing.

You are not the first to have sexual identity issues, and unfortunately wont be the last.
At least you can see where it is coming from and you can begin to heal your heart and mind.

For me it was all about understanding this Cruel fate thrust upon us. Not something we wanted, but hey it happened and now we learn to deal with it.

My life has hanged in 5 Short months, feels like a lifetime ago. It is like I am a new person, and getting better every day.
I do have low days, but hey not so bad anymore.

Heal well Dude and ask questions