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#352700 - 02/03/11 12:59 PM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: prisonerID]
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Registered: 11/19/09
Posts: 26
Loc: United States
THanks, Prisoner ID. Yes it was a good, powerful original message. I shouldn't have changed it in hindsight. Not sure of all the reasons why I changed it but they came mainly from a desire from a strong, good place within me

Oh well live and learn.

I'm getting better!!


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#352711 - 02/03/11 06:27 PM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: honorableman]
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Okay...



Edited by prisonerID (02/03/11 06:33 PM)
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#369117 - 08/30/11 10:27 AM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: prisonerID]
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Loc: United States
To my fellow MS brothers,
I just wanted to send you a note to say hello. I have been doing really and then I started to get back in some of the old negative ruts so I logged in after a long break and felt the need to declare publicly what I am about to say.

You know, I am one hard critic on myself, and I need to empower myself with the inner courage that "Yes, I was sexually assaulted (not just by the husband's act of grabbing my erection without my permission, but by a wife and husband team of predators. Tough pill for me to swallow, but I am working on it!)and not a willing participant even though I was groomed and made to believe that I was an active , equal partner in this "hidden agenda of rape" and let's have fun with this toy we got here and get him to play our game.

Need to forgive myself for following an older sexually domineering/manipulative (to say the least) woman (very sexually atttractive to me at that time with large breasts, dirty blonde hair, a face that said "do me". I was led by my cock (she literally used that part of me to control me and considered my body and soul as her private property) into a sexual liason that appeared OK to me because she said hubby was going to WATCH. She told me to ask her husband about the liason like it was my idea! He even acted surprised by "my idea" but then picked up the>

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#369118 - 08/30/11 10:40 AM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: honorableman]
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Loc: Illinois
Good job bro...glad to see you're healing smile

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#369138 - 08/30/11 06:39 PM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: honorableman]
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Glad to hear things are going well for you. Thank you for sharing the progress report with us.


Daryl

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#379504 - 12/14/11 10:08 PM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: prisonerID]
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hw are you doing honorable?

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#471435 - Yesterday at 10:46 AM Re: Why can't I let things go? [Re: honorableman]
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Registered: 11/19/09
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A reply to myself:
For years I blamed myself for my rape by a team of rapists - a "husband" and wife who was my boss when I was only 22. She was 35, my boss and tricked me into a 3way situation with her bi husband by saying he was going to watch the two of us.

Today I claim to the MS community that I resisted rape and fought back against the rapists.

He grabbed my cock, when she was on top of me and hidden from my view and I pushed his hand away. He was trying to control my cock, a precious part of my body that I cherish and enjoy. He wanted to "finish me off" and I protected myself and rejected his rape of my body.

I am PROUD of what I did to defend myself.

They tried to get me to sleep over prior, I said no.
They tried to get me to watch pornography with them on another occasion I said no.
I told them it was over. He got angry with me (he always spoke to me thru his "wife".
She then wanted to fuck me alone in the house, I said no, and never let her touch me again.

I followed a bad woman down dark stairs to a rape room. I call it what it is.
I fought my way out and am proud of fighting off two rapists.
I choose to define what was DONE to me as Rape that I stopped. I leave it at that.

I needed to say this to my brothers and the world at large.

Respectfully,
Michael - aka Honorableman

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