I wrote this in response to the death of two beautiful children I know. As a survivor, because of the lack off emotions, I could not morn their deaths for a long long time.
I felt like a bit of a freak, not being able to morn, but after a long soul wrenching search for my inner child, I finally felt the welcome relief of tears on my cheeks. I then had the guilt of trying to justify my gain from the death of these two angels. But after talking to their mom one day, A really beautiful soul, she told me that the best thing that could happen from the horror, was that someone would learn something.
I DID, thanks Bron, your courage and compassion will stay with me forever, as will the memory of the two angels.
LOST ANGELS
Those angels, Taken so young
Mom and Dad, what pain to endure
Sweet words of sympathy, I cant endure
Sweet children, taken so young
I try to cry
Cant shed a tear
I watch the parents, pain, anguish
Me, I'm just me
Cant shed a tear
Who stole this heart of mine
Took it, so I cant feel
How selfish to hijack
Someone Else's tears
It wasn't my pain, why cant I feel
Young angels, I knew them by name
Why cant I shed a tear
Why cant I feel
Please give me my heart
So I to can wail
Those angels I knew them by name
I watch the boxes
Slowly descend, so small so lonely
Like me they were.
They now have no one to hold them near
No one to whisper in their ear
Its OK little angel daddy's here.
I will love you and protect you.
I will always be here,
Ah now I relate, now I feel the fear.
I didn't mean to gain from your untimely demise
But thanks little angels, for opening my eyes.
Your end has brought me something.
Floods of tears to my eyes.
Rest well little angels.
Again you have taught me well.
I will miss you both,
But remember you well.
In loving memory of to angels
Madi 7 18th March 2004 14th August 2011
Alley 10 1st February 2001 14th August 2011
Martin
Edited by whome (09/15/11 12:14 PM)
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