Knoble,
I have had a similar but different problem in the work force.
I graduated college at 30 years old in hopes of being a teacher. I didn't realize that my PTSD (probably more from bullying than CSA) would trigger me so badly. I would get the shakes while working at the school and drive home crying every night because the students would traumatize me daily. I tried working at 3 different schools; it was the same every time. Needless to say, my career fell in ruins.
After that, I developed severe social phobia. Combined with PTSD from childhood and my career, I was unable to even LOOK for a job over the course of the next 10 years. Every time I tried, I would feel overwhelming fear and put it off, again and again. One day I realized I actually was disabled (whether the law would call it that or not).
I cannot return to my career...ever. I studied hard for a long time at college to get my career, and now it's gone. All that, for nothing. Had I been able to keep my career, I would be making $30,000/year and maybe have a nice house and car, and maybe something saved up for retirement.
Now I live in a small apartment and drive a car that is falling apart. In this economy, my expensive college degree doesn't count for anything. I barely make a living by delivery-driving in my own vehicle. Not enough to pay all my bills/debts. Someone had to get me this job, too - I wasn't able to look for it myself.
I felt, for a long time, that I should have been owed something - I WANTED to work, but was unable to. Shouldn't I have been entitled to compensation of some kind? But no - the law doesn't acknowledge that I am disabled. So all of my hopes and dreams of a future are dashed. As if anyone cared.
Sorry for my rant. I've thought about this issue a lot in the past year. Just wanted to put in my two cents worth. Thanks.
Bobcat
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