Well, the journey continues, the bad and the good that comes with it.
So, it is obvious when my boyfriend is trying to do the right things and I am grateful for this. He loves to spend time together, even if it is a trip to Home Depot to purchase a plant =) Part of this journey is the "take what you can get" concept. So the last few weeks have been hanging out, no running away, interested in home projects again, etc. He even planned a 3-day trip for us to take the boat out for the 4th of July weekend.
There were a couple of incidents on this trip that made him kind of edgy. For instance, at one point we beached the boat and got out to enjoy the water. Well, when it came time to push it out, we were having a hard time, and since it's common knowledge for boaters to help each other out, these 3 guys came in no time to help push it out the rest of the way. He was thankful, but when they left, his mood changed. He said he felt "exposed." He wanted to handle it on his own. I told him that he would have done this for someone else, but he says this is different. Anyway, he did apologize for making things edgy and said to just let things go in one ear and out the other sometimes. Yes, I know. I was just curious if this scenario sounded familiar to any survivors?
We had a good weekend but he's spiraled down again yesterday. He is stressing about being a groomsman in an upcoming wedding. I'm sure he's added other things to his mental chaotic heap to get him where he's at again.
During one of our conversations this weekend, he did tell me that no matter where he "goes", that I am his constant. Funny how something so simple can be so meaningful. Like I said, you take the bad with the good...
Edited by aloved1 (07/12/11 01:55 PM)