Some friends invited me to a summer solstice "picnic" in the park, which is happening right now (midnight). I wanted to go but not really at the same time since I am a newly recovering alcoholic and I know there will be alcohol there. Thing is I am around alcohol on a regular basis (my work requires it) and am not triggered by it so I'm going back and forth on whether I should have gone or not, just to enjoy the company of friends. I guess my biggest concern is being with my friends while they are drinking since that could be triggering as I may feel left out. Not that they are all falling down drunks. On the contrary, I'm worrying that being around non-alcoholics while they enjoy social drinking may convince me in my mind that I can do the same, drink socially I mean, which I can’t. Sure it would start out that way but within a matter of weeks my consumption would be back up to where it was before I stopped. Anyways it makes me wonder if there will ever be a time that I can attend social gatherings with others where alcohol is present while I remain sober. Am I making too much out of this by not going, being overly worried about the risks I mean? Hearing from others in recovery from addiction about this matter, particularly those with long time sobriety, would be appreciated.
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