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#363995 - 06/11/11 12:08 PM I think I'm getting it
h.beat,h.break Offline

Registered: 06/05/09
Posts: 124
Loc: New York
Recently, I've been frequenting some sites looking for anon interactions with other men. Not a confession, although it kinda feels like one, since I am a bit ashamed of myself for going back there. But, I've been struggling with my sexuality for a long time ever since the abuse started and I was just looking for answers. Some days I felt straight and others gay. It's difficult when you can't place a finger on who you are supposed to be even when your eyes are open.

Anyway, I had met one of the guys from the site yesterday and I found myself enjoying the conversation (in public which I am not used to doing). However, after the date was over, I found myself going from cloud 9 to cloud -999. I'm afraid of what this means, but at the same time I'm not. IDK. But, I guess, I just have to take this slow until I figure SOMETHING out.

Hey, if "black sheep" means you're the only non-douche of the family, take that with some pride.

#364663 - 06/20/11 07:26 PM Re: I think I'm getting it [Re: h.beat,h.break]
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Registered: 11/02/08
Posts: 121
I am also familiar with the awkward feeling of "revealing too much".

Ah relationships... such difficult thing to manage.

Consider the postage stamp: its usefulness consists in the ability to stick to one thing till it gets there. ~Josh Billings.
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