I have been conducting a moral inventory as of late. I have finally decided to wage war on my addiction to pornography. I have been using pornography since the age of 8 years old (forced on me as part of the abuse). I know this will be a difficult addiction to overcome, but I am certain that I can win this war.
Some interesting issues have come up recently. I have only ever masturbated to pornography or the thought of those images in my mind. As a result, I have formed some unhealthy views of sex and sexuality.
As continue to work on my pornography addiction, I am becoming more aware of all the beliefs I have been reinforcing over the years.
1. I have been objectifying people (especially women).
2. I place far too much emphasis on sex in a relationship.
3. I take sex out of context (intimacy and love does not equal sex).
4. I lack any sort of sexual awareness (my own body).
All of this has shattered my idea of healthy sexuality. All I have ever known is masturbation to pornographic images. I am not sure what I am supposed to think about when I mastubate. I don't know what healthy masturbation is. I cannot for the life of me define healthy sexuality. I am not sure where to start.
Thanks for listening.
Edited by Letourski (06/13/11 08:06 PM)
I am the warrior.