That's the thing about a carousel. It's a ride that goes in an endless circle. But at some point it is going to stop and you will be able to get off. And when you can't you at least get a breather before it starts up again. :rolleyes:
So when my ride is a vicious cycle of some bad feeling, I try to be a "rider on the storm," to as Dave said embrace it as my emotion, my reality,
and hang on for dear life.
And if it's a good feeling, a "vital cycle" I'm riding, then I as Dave also said try to ride that sucker out for everything it's worth & make the most of it, instead of wondering, "what the hell am I feeling good for!?" That's what I did over Christmas holiday in Manhattan on the Central Park Carousel.
Oh yeah, there is a price for riding the emotional
carousel, wherever it takes me.
That's why we survivors are so good at acting out or numbing out in different ways. We numb our feelings & act like it doesn't matter. But it does, so it doesn't work. But we keep trying becuz
we would rather feel the familiar pain, the comfortable numbness, of our dysfunctional thots & behaviors, than we would the unfamiliar pain of actually feeling anything. It can hurt to feel especially when we're not used to doing it, or doing it in a functional way.
But as we pay the price & begin to feel, and to feel in ways positive to our recovery & our lives,
we find that while still painful at times, it's worth it & so much better than being "comfortably numb." At least that's what I'm starting
to learn and experience...
BTW, Al my friend, hold your head high, but inside the carousel, as you're riding it carousel. It might save you a few dental bills...
And I say that as one who's missing "a few" teeth
Take care men