Being angry for not feeling good--->feeling guilty about that & thus feeling worse--->getting more angry, for feeling too guilty or not guilty enuf--->getting more angry & feeling even worse--->now that's
a carousel I don't
want to ride anymore!
I've tried just letting my anger go and really venting it in ways violent to others or to myself or mostly to things, verbally or physically. It didn't release it but just kept pouring out more & more, as tho coming from a bottomless pit of hell.
I've more recently tried mostly just holding my anger in. But it almost inevitably gets built up & explodes out per above, rather than dissipating within me. Meanwhile it eats me up from the inside out.
Now I'm starting to work on a better way, openly acknowledging, venting, expressing & releasing my
anger, but in ways that are appropriate to how I treat others & how I treat myself. Therapy has been a huge help here, as have recovery sites, especially MS, as a place to vent & talk things thru. Sometimes, I even kinda get it right!...
Finding new ways of relating & communicating, and finding alternate activities & coping mechanisms,
has been real important. Especially setting proper boundaries between myself and certain people or situations. Relaxation techniques & good reading have been vital as well.
Like I said, I'm still really working on this one...