Walk away... Take a break. You cannot help those who cannot help themselves at this moment. I know. My god, I know it hurts. Trust me. I'm there. I'm going through it. RIGHT NOW.
Love yourself, first. Who else will? If they can't love themselves, and harm themselves, how could they even possibly love you at this moment?
You are the MOST IMPORTANT person in this world right now... His pain is HIS pain... I know it's selfish to say, but it is. The only way anyone can ever finally realize they need to be 'saved' or helped, is by them alone. Otherwise, it falls on deaf ears. They may 'hear' you, but do they really, HEAR you..?
Step back. Take a breath. Love yourself first and heal you. It's needed. You deserve it. You have done more than above and beyond... You are more woman than the average woman for doing what you have done. Others would have walked away, instantly.. We though, have something stronger that kept us here. Unfortunately, now we need healing.
I hope you're staying strong...
Picking up the pieces is the sh*ttiest part of life. I hate it. But, damn it, it's possible. Someday. Somehow. It will get better and there will be another door to open and peek into. And when you do, you'll never want to walk back into the last room you were in. Promise.
Stay strong my loves...
"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy.’ They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life." - John Lennon