I have been here nearly 3 years. I have "looked" at the yucky stuff from my past.
Now, I am at a place - although very raw place - where I am needing to rebuild. I have been living life as I process the flashbacks and other "bad" memories.
I think I am on the "hump" on the hill - it is still hill and the road is rocky. I am glad to NOT be in the valley anymore BUT I have no idea about this rocky road ahead.
My T yesterday said it is time to live your own life. She asked me when will I forgive myself. The time has come right here and right now.