Sorry that abuse happened to you, it sure is a tough break and undeserved. The betrayal of a family member is something many here also know, you're no longer alone with this. You'll be understood here, there's a lot of compassion and healing at your fingertips now. Go easy on yourself, no reason to hurry, you're right where you need to be at this time.
"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
"You cannot find peace by avoiding life."