i feel like an alien. maybe i am. i am a songwriter and the project i'm working on right now is very personal. the lyrics deal with some darkness from my childhood, although i don't go into details. this is sort of "my story" in a roundabout way. it's really important to me that this project is something i am really proud of. but somehow i'm not sure how to get there. i've put so much energy and effort into this and i'm not so sure it's turning out the way i'd like it to. sometimes i feel like a failure as a musician. i've gotten a little recognition but it's never enough. maybe it's because my parents will always see me as a worthless failure. not sure if any of this makes sense. feeling quite alone and not so fearless these days. don't know what i'm looking for. blah.