Hi, my fraternal brother.
No you aren't alone in feelings about starting with a T.
I researched for a CSA only T when i left Germany for Texas. I found one in the Dallas area. I contacted her via e-mail & she set me up for a telephone interview. She had called me in Germany and asked me some questions to see if she would accept me as a patient. Of the three T's that i have had she being the only one whom dealt specifically with child sexual abuse. In my opinion was the best one for me. She was gentle and she understood me. When ever i talked about little Pete she understood where i was coming from in talking about him.
My other T's both males, both working for the US government. One in Germany was mostly in PTSD issues. He was a "jack" of all trades. He worked for the US Army. He was my first. Igot the feeling that he really didn't understand when i always talked about little Pete. Maybe it was just my perception. My last one worked for the Veterans Administration he was also a "jack" of all trades. PTSD & mixed group sessions mostly (male & female) sexual abuse victims. I only had a few 1 on 1 sessions with him, and at times i got the feeling that he did not understand me always talking about little Pete. I left him as i never again wanted to be in a mixed group. 1 0n 1 was my preference but he was more into groups.
For me right now i feel that i received more therapy (intensive) at those weekends of recovery, here in MS. Plus all of my brothers & healing circles here in MS. Than i had from those 3 T's combined. Again that is strictly my opinion. Maybe my age has something to do with it too.
I wish you well in your T sessions. I wish you well in your journey to becoming a survivor.
Heal well, my fraternal brother, Steve, heal well.
"I will take that lost boys hand, and i will lead him from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.
Working Boys' Home 10-14 yrs old, grades 5-8. 1949-1953
A very humble alumni of the WOR Dahlonega, GA.
May 15-17 2009, Alta, Sep. 2009. Sequoia, 2010.
Hope Springs, 2010.