Acknowledging the way I have suffered by being in relationships with people who are not there for me...I used to be that way too..(not there for people)...but in the last few years I have desired to have people around me care and are able to show it....I can see that this has not manifested probably because I have not been ready for this kind of openess with others.....non-the-less....I want to acknowledge the suffering of being in those relationships where I cannot feel secure that the people actually care for me and would show it if I needed it......