I don't know if this common...but I don't engage you often because I am....intimidated. I struggle with feeling inferior to people F2F. When you've replied to my posts in the past, I've thought "he was very perceptive/objective", and well.....I'm not ususally. If I'm hurting, it takes a lot of work for me to push my anger/sadness/confusion aside to be more objective.
However....I've never seen you go BOLD,
I can connect with that.
I see you feeling rejected and rejectable. I can relate. It's just hard for me
to connect with people who don't "wear it on their sleeves" sometimes. I remember in summer, when you shared the shame and fear you felt about wanting a relationship with your abuser. I heard "HELP" in that post. I haven't followed you a lot lately, but here.......you need us. Todd has needs. I'm sure you may have been scared posting this originally (and anger/hurt can mask it), but.............this I can connect with. Confused too? I can connect with that.
Don't go. I'd like to offer something if I can. But...part of me sees you doing what you've needed to do: ask for HELP.
From where I stand, that's cool. You're not rejectable. You're........just like all of us here. Thanks for speaking up.
PS: I almost left, but.... I gotta ask: what else is on your mind?