Sooooooo fucking mad today

does it EVER fucking END?

Spill it here man!

just sick and fucking tired of putting so much fucking effort into writing and talking and meetings and groups and shrink and fucking BULLSHIT then one little tiny stupid thing comes up and its like fucking BAM! start all over again feeling the same shit way u did months ago. its like no matter how hard i work and no matter how much i move forward some ppl are just always gonna see me as travis the abused guy and that really sucks cuz theres SOOOO Much more to me that THAT but Y the fuck should i hafto prove that to anybody? just tired bro. too tired to really give a flyin fuck anymore. SORRY. sorry sorry sorry sorry can anyone say meltdown?

they say so but honestly i dont fuckin know man

well fucking A
I GIVE UP looking for an answer

i hear you about f tired! despite what ppl say, yes, you do have to prove everything. its never enough being something you have to SHOW it.. i hate it how the fuckin world works. anyway, you shouldnt have to worry about it just now, you come first, let everyone else fuck off..

they say it gets better....

this is new. i never never felt like i had to prove anything to anyone and all of a sudden i do. i dont like it.

Teebone,
Hang in there. I have days where I am tired of trying and just want to give up. My therapist keeps me on track as does my group and this site. If we give up now, our perps win! I really want to prove to myself that I am worth all the effort--but there are days....

Teebone,
Just try to focus that you are doing this for yourself, to heal, even if it doesn't feel that way right now.

Hang in there.
Jim

People who know you in Cali and know you here see an artist a good friend a man with humor and a strong man.

You are not just seen as a survivor, but we all are and I'm proud on your bad days and proud on your good ones to be in recovery with you.
The pain is real but I know you will keep healing too. I got faith in that.

Keith

HI, Tee,

Once we learn some things in recovery we never forget them so, I believe we don't completely start over again. I HEAR you though. This stuff is fucking hard to get through.

I am so glad your talking this out.

Donnie

hmmmmmm.... thanks bros and sorry for the tantrum

Tantrum? Ah, that was just a little disturbance. We can handle it.

You are cool with all. We all need to let it out from time to time.

I think TeeBone just over loaded on playing Porter Wagner, Dolly Parton, and Minnie Pearl music.

He'd chill if he liked rock instead....

OK who the fuck is porter wagner? and theres only one thing i like about dolly parton. well, ok 2 things. and minnie pearl? i didnt know your momma made music keith
KEEP IT UP lol

thanks

Travis:

The cycles of this happening - seem to slow down after a while --- at least that is how it has been working for me recently.

Bob

yup. its all good.

Well look at it this way Tee; if you kept to the plan you had in place last year, you would look like this now:

http://img214.imageshack.us/img214/8153/spinachtb5.gif

So figure even a bad day in recovery you are still better off..

LOL! right?

Meltdown


Kev

you need help dude. hate to tell ya but i think that classical shit ur into is messin up ur head. LOL

nah, it's not the classical shit itself...it's that molester who taught me some of that classical shit that's messin' with my head...but I was just sayin' meltdown cause you asked, not sayin' I had one...well yesterday I mean...mine was on Monday

guess if u hafto have a meltdown mondays a good day to have one. start off the week right lol.

glad to see u're ina good mood