Mine comes from the name of my last pet, a black labrador ...i found him in a garbage bag in the ditch and rescued him...

Like me, he had a lot of darkness hidden in his heart...he never barked or growled, just as i rarely yell or raise my voice ...

I spent years trying to get him to play tug of war or roughouse, but he wouldn't ...just like his owner, his spirit was broken...

When he was big enough to walk on his own, i took him to the backyard and just lay in the grass...he put his paws on my heart and sort of cocked his head at me. That was when i named him Darkheart.

He lived with me many years, but got sick and had to be put down right after that, i started using it as a pen name for myself...

I guess mine's pretty self-explanatory. I'm here because I have hope for him and if I didn't believe that, I wouldn't be here to learn to be a better supporter (and to take care of myself, of course).

mine is self explanatory also...
I want to cry for myself
I want to cry for what my husband has gone through
I want to cry for all the pain survivors feel
I want to cry because I'm scared to death for my kids with such evil monsters lurking on this earth
I want to cry...because I can't cry in real life because I'm always the bubbly, happy, life of the party girl who everyone thinks is happy 24/7. No one knows of what I'm going through...
except maybe you guys.

I guess mine is self-explanatory.... to a point.
I've always been a jock and a sports junkie, although I have a habit of picking underdogs (and in recent years you can't get any more underdog than the Baltimore Orioles.) I've always been able to talk sports, and I think part of the reason is that it was a good mask for me to hide behind. If I could talk/play sports, then I didn't have to face all the other stuff that made me hurt inside.....so most sports came easy for me, although the natural interest for athletics was always there.

Even though I live in NY now, Baltimore's where I was schooled and all that. And I also joined here during baseball season, so the Orioles thing came naturally......
and so here I am.

And here is the source of my name...


Love and abuse make marks on our lives,
For good and ill,
That cannot be removed.
Condemning and redeeming,
each in their turn.

-efm

I have enjoyed reading this thread...

My name came to me as a mental de>

My name was inspired from the avatar I had on my msn for a long time and when I was signing up on here, it was a blue butterfly, but it reminded me of bluefairy, which sounded nice, which then reminded me of bluefairy form A.I (Artificial intelligence) - which I thought was a good film. I thought Bluefairy was a symbol of hope in the film, and I like that, I wanted to be there for him and be supportive.

When I was a kid I thought my name was boring "Tim". I would wish it was Wayne which was the name of the man who was the BoyScout leader in the area where I lived. I admired him. Wayne itself would not be accepted when I applied for it here on MS so I added my favorite number "9".

When I was younger I rescued a White Winged Dove, it fell from the nest and its parents didnt pick him up from the floor so I adopted him ( not sure if it was a he or a She), mr whiskers became my only friend for a while , i know birds dont have whiskers but i swear it smiled and move his face like moving whiskers, so i named him mr.whiskers, i truly loved that dove,

Many see my name and think I am an old guy - I am 23 years old and in college - the day that I signed on to this site a month ago I had been tired of being on this road thinking about it in my head. I felt like a weary traveler.

The other thing is I love travel and going places and I love that it can wear you out - love checking into a hotel in a foreign city where you have seen so much your tired. I love seeing things that help you understand the world around you even though it can wear you out learning. Sometimes its a good tired.

Josh