Theo, my brother,
I am sorry to hear about your situation. It really sounds horrible!
Does it ever end? I can't answer that because I ask it every day. My life is collapsing down around me even as we speak. Not even related to my abuse, but it's really bad. And I ask myself every day. Does it ever end?
Brother, you are showing good judgment in avoiding this man, these feelings you have. But you also seem to want to act on them. You've gotta ask yourself, is it worth it? Is it worth going to jail, is it worth losing your mind over, giving this choob one more thought that he doesn't deserve?
Believe me when I say I understand what you're going through. We all do. I know it isn't easy. I can't answer your question. All I can say is that I care about you, I value you, and I want you here for a long, long time. Please think about it before you do anything rash. It's not worth it, Theo. It really isn't. You're worth so much more than that @$$hole.
Peace and love, bro.
There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies