makes me mad that that piece of $@*^(#&& ruined bach's mass in b minor for you, what a worthless SOB...
maybe classical music isn't the way to forge a positive memory but I do like what daryl said about creating a positive experience for that day... it won't completely overshadow the pain & suffering that you've endured, however, it does serve to remind us that life is worth living and there is still a lot of beauty in the world. i know for me, I had my 1 year anniversary and instead of being in the hospital, my nurse took me for a walk and we saw the beginnings of the fall foliage and the weather was warm enough to go outside without a coat. I am still sick but I was happy not to be in the hospital, and I was happy that I was with someone who was not going to hurt me. last year i never got to see the autumn weather because I was too sick to leave the hospital. maybe is there a way for you to get out of the city and see some natural beauty? I'm sure toronto is a cool place but maybe you could go hiking or something? possibly take your wife along? being with nature can be very freeing.
I wish there was some other way for that 1st hospital to have treated you... what they did was inexcusable and wrong. I get so angry at the mental healthcare system for doing things like that. I'm glad the 2nd hospital was able to give you your medication and is connecting you with resources that might be able to help you. You shouldn't have to face this kind of trauma alone. You are still a man, you are a human being who is worthy of support and understanding. Please know that we are here to try & support & understand you on your journey towards wholeness and healing.
“If a man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark.”
- Saint John of the Cross