It's more a bout just feeling broken. Like "damaged goods." And I feel like I only hurt the people i get close to. My ex-fiancée used to always tell me I had a wall up that she couldn't get through. I thought I was open with her and everything but apparently not. I guess I am guarded, trying not to let people too close because I don't want them to be pained by my own brokenness.
And there are time when I wonder if healing is possible. I know in my head it is, but at times don't believe it in my heart. I know that, like the mirror, I need to be put back together, but can all the broken pieces really be remade to be what it once was? Coukd it even be remade into something better? Again, I know it can, but sometimes have a hard time believing it.