I have been looking for a "pop" answer that will explain it all as to why those four older boys did what they did to me. I went to Amazon and search "children who molest children."

What I discovered is there are penty of books on the topic, its of epidemic proportions and its an emerging discipline of psycho-therapy and psychology.

The sad part is that these books are very expensive and I cannot buy them. I just thought I'd pass that along to those whom have been abused by "children/adolecents" (effectively).

I am also asking the professionals here to keep us informed of conferences and/or peer-reviewed papers on the topic.

Robbie,

I understand where your coming from regarding wanting information on the perps who hurt you.

Have you tried a google search? Your local library can help you find books. I know asking is very tough. I was taking a Juvenile Justice class and started gathering materials on this very topic.

I am proud of you.

Donnie

Robbie,



***TRIGGER FISH ***

This was also part of my problem. I agree that kind of abuse (by other boys) causes some special problems.

I have declared here in MS that I was subjected to kiddie porn while still 3 and then into 4. I was abused by several other older boys (several years older than me) in the making of that porn. I know the names of all 3 of them and I know where 2 are now. But I don't know much about their lives. One of the related problems is that they were hostile to me and set me up for a lot of feelings of social rejection.

Also the abuse I experienced at the camp at age 12 began with abuse by a bunch of boys the same age or older than I was. All of that was orchestrated by the abuser. I think the abuser knew exactly what he was doing and was setting those things up to emotionally disable me. It really set up some nasty emotional systems. Also then I saw my abuser kill another boy through a sexual act. All of this really set up some nasty psychological problems in me.

Allen

Donnie,

I live in a town that makes Mayberry look like New York. Its small....really really small. With my darling ex-wife spreading news of my CSA like the flu throughout the town, I cannot approach the tiny library to an ILL (Inter Library Loan) with the state. The state, in fact, has one better book than Amazon, but its in a distant hopital library and I would have to use my ID at my home-town library to do an ILL.

The price of these books really sucks. Even the used ones are too high for me.

WTF!?!?!?! This shakes me to my very core. Can you elaborate?

Robbie,

***triggering*** and ***bad reading***:
I talked about it in:

http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthr...9028#Post219028



Allen

I had to ask. OMG! I hope Leader-X is ..... oh nevermind. Holy God!

I found this book in Amazon:

Sexualized Children: Assessment and Treatment of Sexualized Children and Children Who Molest [Paperback]
Eliana Gil(Author), Toni Cavanagh Johnson (Author), William N. Friedrich (Foreword)

http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1877872059/

I haven't looked at the book but it gets mostly good reviews in Amazon. I have ordered it as a used book for $5.99.

Allen

pufferfish

******triggering



Pufferfish,

I remember reading this back when you wrote it originally. It still affects me.

Robbie,

I am with you...nevermind...urgh...

I passed out a few times due too...

Awareness will help.

Donnie

After my memories surfaced, I spent some effort trying to find in newspaper archives for Washington D.C. (the general area where it happened) if there were any newspaper articles of dead boys showing up by the road side or as a result of drowning. I actually found a whole bunch of articles on it. I was hampered by a strong residual fear from the torture and abuse impinged upon me not to "tell". I never got to the point of writing letters which should have been the first step. Same reason. My T at that time queried the FBI on this but they said it was "too old to be of interest". (that is, statute of limitations kinds of stuff - which should be irrelevant in the case of murder).

Here is a link giving key results of my efforts:


Allen

puffer