Thanks, Jeff. You are validating some stuff and pointing out stuff that I hadn't thought of. I really do want to give her the benefit of the doubt. If she does not call, though, I'm writing her off. And my T Jake says that the person who is less interested is in control. Like what your psychologist told you. And
frantic to make a connection
may be quite appropriate to my present state. I've had a number of rude events this past week and am not feeling the greatest. In fact, I am going to see my doctor this coming week if I don't get ANYTHING else done. I had some "practice" last year with a couple of women whom I dated briefly. Both from AA. I have now sworn off women in AA unless they have been sober a very long time. But in both cases, I did not get very involved and ended both with minimal hurt to me. Neither would have worked out, I'm sure. I don't even know if this is on topic. Yes, Green, my mother is always in this mix, though less so now than used to be. The last SERIOUS relationship I was in, she told me that my mother's presence was all around me. And she would smoke pot and abuse me until I was in tears. I broke up with her three years ago, after suffering serious harm. And I shouldn't EVEN be around pot and all my AA buddies asked what the hell was I doing. But I got away from her before I used. But not before going into a deep depression. Now I feel strong enough not to need to work out that crazy stuff with my mother with another woman. I have learned to listen to that small voice of intuition. I don't even know what's wrong, but I can hear that voice, so I listen. And you guys are helping a lot.
Thanks for listening,