Thanks for all the good wishes here and in PM. Positive thinking can only help.
I guess if I am looking for a positive out of a bad deal it would be that I've stayed 100% on plan with my recovery at a time I'm panicked and scared.
Few years back we went through some heavy health crap with our oldest son and then I would act out like crazy, telling myself it was ok, I deserved the relief, and after all I was a CSA victim.
Not this time. I was tempted a few times to go there this week but I haven't and I am not. I'm never going back there.
Sometimes I guess the best we can do is to hang tough and try to take care of oursleves and those around us.
By the way our oldest kid is now 18, confident, focused, popular and in full control of his ongoing health issue. I was none of those things at his age due to csa at 11. Am I glad he is so different? Hell yeah.....
Be well all and thanks as always for your support.
"You can get far in life by pushing except through a door marked PULL...." Profile quote in my oldest son's senior year HS Yearbook.