I took my anger out on my father last night and now I donít know how to fix it. He called me because I sent him a letter about my CSA. We began to talk about it and he ask if it was anybody he knew which it wasnít, he then said so many things made sense to him now, and that I should have told him and mom and that he thought they would have understood. This just hit me the wrong way and I told him bullshit Ė I was the problem child, the liar, the one who never listened, the one who was always in trouble. Everything he tried to say I just tore into. My anger just seem to take control and I wanted to hurt him anyway I could. Now Iím wondering if my healing after all this time is really worth causing more pain.I want to say Iím sorry but Iím not sure he would except it or even talk to me now.