Jacob, what is going on over there??? If I were you, I think I'd lock my doors and never go outside. I hate to ask something like this, but have you considered moving to a safer neighborhood? Like Nowhere, USA? That's where I live, by the way.
Did you find a new sponsor? That last guy didn't seem very helpful.
I hope things go better for you. I'm in therapy again, this time for the long haul. I've figured out that a lot of what I've done in life is simply reenacting the SA and trying not to be the "horrible person" that I felt my perp made me for even knowing about all of this SA stuff. It's a real fight to try to keep those old perp voices at bay.
Write here anytime. I hope you're talking to someone. You know the men here understand. We feel your pain more than you know.
You're always welcome to PM me. Take care.
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"This search for the truth--it's not for the faint of heart."--Goren on 'Law & Order: CI'
"The former things will not be called to mind, neither will they come up into the heart."--Isaiah 65:17