Jacob, what is going on over there??? If I were you, I think I'd lock my doors and never go outside. I hate to ask something like this, but have you considered moving to a safer neighborhood? Like Nowhere, USA? That's where I live, by the way.
Did you find a new sponsor? That last guy didn't seem very helpful.
I hope things go better for you. I'm in therapy again, this time for the long haul. I've figured out that a lot of what I've done in life is simply reenacting the SA and trying not to be the "horrible person" that I felt my perp made me for even knowing about all of this SA stuff. It's a real fight to try to keep those old perp voices at bay.
Write here anytime. I hope you're talking to someone. You know the men here understand. We feel your pain more than you know.
You're always welcome to PM me. Take care.
"This search for the truth--it's not for the faint of heart."--Goren on 'Law & Order: CI'
"The former things will not be called to mind, neither will they come up into the heart."--Isaiah 65:17