Hey buddy, its been a while since we talked. I havent had access to a computer for a while. Sorry that you are still experiencing problems with dealing with the gay thing. No body can tell you wether you are gay or not. That must come from you. I know that you are in a sticky situation, being that you are married and have children. Being gay , doesnt mean your a less of a father. Finding and figuring yourself out, takes time. Keep in touch. im here if you need to talk. my screen name is still : dstep517 .

take care,
derek

your posting fits me to a T....be proud of yourself....you have had the courage to at least try sex....i've been too afraid my whole life to have sex with anybody....guy or girl....i'm just so afraid i'd freak out and hurt somebody.......i'm 42 and just now trying to face the abuse issues...unfortunately, i think it is too late for me....too much damage, too much pain.......take care of yourself......michael

Hi, my brothers.

All that i'm going to say about this subject is, atleast for me.

I go where my emotional & sexual feelings truly are. What i always was, but just under the concious level, Gay.

Wishing my brothers here compassion, understanding & love, in trying to figure out their sexuality.

Heal well, my brothers, heal well.

"I will take that lost boys hand, and i will lead him from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As HE is ME.

Pete..Irishmoose.

If people were free to be who they are gay, strait, bisexual or all the degrees in between the world would be an easier place to live. We all need to be who we really are and find acceptance of ourselves and others. Too many people agonize and beat them selves up because they have difficulty accepting their sexual orientation. Too many innocent people get hurt: wives, husbands and especially children because people denying their true nature, their sexuality enter into relationships they shouldn't have in the first place. How sad and unnessary for everyone when this happens. Go online and look up Joe Kort, he's an experienced sex therapist who's written about this. He's rational, logical, compassionate and very well informed on the subject. I belive he may also write for this website. My heart goes out to all you guys struggling with this issue, I hope in time you find the answers and peace you so deserve.