Ok, so my life is extremely stressful at the moment.
School, work, home work, Exams, sharing the load of responsibility keeping the family business going since My Grandpa past away at the end of August. Caring for and spending time with my Mother and Grandmother to make sure that they are Ok and not too lonely and letting them grieve for their loss.
Driving around 90 miles a day to go back and forth from my dads house to School, then to the city, then back again.
And none of that even has to do with Abuse issues!
The lack of adequate rest because of the nightmares, the New haunting and/or disgusting memories, the bodily physical sensations, the phantom tastes.
This life style is really burning me out and causing SO MUCH anxiety in me.
I thought that meditation may help but I don't really know how to do it.
I know the one where one sits back in an arm chair and closes the blinds dims the lights and makes the room comfortably dark. The person then closes their eyes and and counts the breaths, in and out and focuses on their breathing and then they focus on every part of their body beginning with the toe, then the feet, then the lower legs and so on all the way up to the head and while focussing on each part of their body, imagines them relaxing and all stress coming out of their body.
I really liked that one.
I have done that one a few times and it was very helpful. The problem is, is that there was a CD playing soft, instrumental music in the back round, and I don't have nor do I know where to get such a CD.
Does anyone know of a Meditation-like Music that I could get somewhere or can someone please suggest something. Or maybe point me in the right direction for things like this in general?????
Also, can anyone suggest a guide or a place were I may find a guide to practice meditation. The Ones where they instruct you on what to do like "Now closes you eyes and a take a deep breath and as you breath out, make it last for 5 seconds....." Something like that.
Or if somebody knows another type of meditation or relaxing exercises, Please, Please, Please! Share!!!!!!
I really need to find a way to deal with this stress! I am aware of how vulnerable I am right now into slipping back into old, past detrimental coping mechanisms and behaviors, like acting out and drugs and stuff and I really don't wanna do that or that to happen.
All responses will be greatly appreciated!!!!!!!!
Edited by Logan (09/20/10 04:04 PM)
"Terrible thing to live in Fear"-Shawshank Redemption
WOR Alumnus Hope Springs 2009
"Quite a thing to live in fear, this is what is means to be a slave"