When my "amnesia" lifted about that abuse I experienced as a 12-year-old boy in the scout camp, I was left with an extremely strong compulsive desire to know who did that to me and why. A lot of you guys who are survivors will understand that.
But it wasn't until about 10 years after my memories returned that I saw headlines and in the TV news about a very famous person. I still don't feel at liberty to give the name here, but I recognized the name
as that of my perpetrator. It's as though the name was outlined in bold highlight. I looked up the references to the famous person online and in the library and found that he had a son who was the right age to have been my perpetrator. The famous person has had several books written about him. One of the books says that he would beat his son regularly with an army belt, with the metal tip exposed. The son was in the right place at the right time to have been my perp.
OK, then recently kidneythis gave me this reference:http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=5712544616311773685#
This documentary really "clicked" with me. The time-frame of the subject matter was within the frame of when I was abused. Also I believed that I saw a picture of my perpetrator
about half way through the film. This put me in a frame of mind to look into the matter further.
I easily found some books in Amazon.com which tell that tell of the clandestine services named in my earlier post as using children as subjects. The first book I found was: A Question of Torture: CIA Interrogation from the Cold War to the War on Terror
, by Alfred W. McCoy. The time frame was appropriate to the abuse issues I was looking into:http://www.amazon.com/Question-Torture-Interrogation-American-Project/dp/0805082484/
This book on page 29 claims that children in summer camps
were given hallucinogens. It also documents the interrogation techniques.
Another book lists the father of my perpetrator 3 times as being involved in setting up the clandestine operations which I cite above. It seems reasonable that he would have appointed his son to some important activity within these clandestine operations. This book is: A Terrible Mistake: The Murder of Frank Olson and the CIA's Secret Cold War Experimentshttp://www.amazon.com/Terrible-Mistake-Murder-Secret-Experiments/dp/0977795373/
There are a number of references in this book (page 285) to using children and inmates and others as guinea pigs to experiment with
using drugs and interrogation techniques. It was claimed that they were orphan children
or in some kind of detention facility. Of course the first book above tells of using children in summer camp (which is what I was).
So this and other sources started to fit into a pretty comprehensive picture of the why and who and how of how I was abused in the scout camp.Summary
: The conclusions that I came up with are: I am almost certain who the perp was, that includes his name, family background, how he was treated by his father and that it might make him want to abuse others. I also found that his father was in a position of responsibility to appoint people to the clandestine efforts. It would be reasonable to assume that my perp would be appointed by his father in this effort. I know from the newspapers the whereabouts of the son at that time and that he was in scouts. It seems likely that he liked to work on boys. He had a strong personality and probably had the ability to exude charm. The clandestine efforts he became a part of were to write a manual on interrogation, which would be nasty stuff. He would experiment on children in summer camps. I was one of the children.
The books cited are by responsible persons working in responsible jobs and who have given lots and lots of references at the end of their books.
Sorry this has been such a long post.