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You say you've been able to move from apathy to hurt and anger. It's part of the process, Friend. Proof positive that you are progressing!
That's the good news. Bad news is that dealing with these issues is not something that most of us find we can do in a short period of time so hunker down for the fight. You'll learn a lot about yourself during your recovery and will come out the other side grateful for having learned those things. It is pretty horrific some of the things many of us went through during our assault or abuse, but as they say, we can take those lemons and make lemonade
“Life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting ‘Holy ____…! What a ride!’” ~Hunter S. Thompson